rase bersalah~

semlm dh trpchkn model gigi patient..
haih...cuak tol time nk gi mtk maaf.aku pon plik je nape air mata ni mcm nk kuar time tu..bkn takut sgt..tp, rase brslh yg amat kt dr asyraf..x psl2 kna fix blk bnda tuh..nasib baek gk x rosakkn gigi tuh..
maaf yer doktor...


tp dr asyraf mmg best la..die x mrh pon...he said :
"ah,u did it??"
"hm..its ok..no problem..i'll fix it..its ok"
tapiii...tingat muke die yg mcm agk keciwe wlu pon senyum,sedey plak~..
i'm sory doc...

haih~
kecewa dgn diri sndiri yg "tbolah"
pngjrnnyer...
sile berhati2 dlm lab
jgn keciwekan doc

don't

da'ie perlu kreatif ~

perjumpaan MEKAP semalam buat aku terpikir sat...
kenape ye??stiap kumpulan pon ade mslh kehadiran mad'3u??melainkan segelintir jer..
yg xde mslh tu mmg buat aku merendah diri~..mgkin itu tanda aku tidak bijak dlm menarik perhatian mad3u...

mad3u ni mcm2 ade...pelbagai batch...umur...minat..penglibatan...mmg otak kite as da'ie kena selalu perah2..how nak attract stiap org spya sume puas hati...

hm..knp ye??
knp aku benar2 hilang idea bile sampai je kertas silibus MEKAP depan aku??
knp aku x dpt relatekan ape2 aktiviti yg best utk aku smpikan semua yg termaktub dlm tu?
knp aku x sekreatif org len??
hm...smpi bile nak kena camni?

aku mule pikirkan idea2 yg dicadang :
games
rehlah
gabungan
makan2 (salu jer)

tp kan???tibe2 aku pk lg
aku sndiri ikhlas ke bwk ahli MEKAP tu?
aku sndiri benar2 nak smpikan ke?
aku ni.....
ade somthing wrong somewhere ke..
yg menybbkan ahli mekap tuh x dtg

dan aku jgk terpikir~...
knp la aku x wat mekap time cuti hr tu??
knp la aku x cari bahan laen ye??
haih~ lagho juge diri ini sepjg cuti hr tu..
hgga melepaskan tgjwb..
( maafkan Nik@k.nik yer.i'll do my best after this..)

::masih mencari jalan penyelesaian::

bout today~

hm..lame gak dah tak berblogging..bz la jgk..

akhirnye blalu sudah cuti yg hampir 3 mggu baru2 nih...
mcm2 dah buat...mcm2 tmpt n prog dah pegi(even i don't go to syria,turkey n anywhere else)..
ade PINTAZ, ziarah race, dan mcm2 lg...pendek cite..dlm cuti hr tu dah byk bende wat...yg plg bg kesan = pindah...kluar dr BYTE ZINNIRAH yg tersyg...going to new villa (new home that i will love)..ya3ni BYTE BUSHRA...moga dgn adanya umah baru..bilik baru..azam baru...moga diri ini juga menjadi baru...menjadi lebih baek..menjadi org yg cemerlang dunia dan akhirat..insyaAllah..doakan...

cam x sangke...pjam celik.pjm celik...hr ni dah stat new sem

for me...new sem is new life...
bcoz i planned something new to do and i need to commit with it...
i dont think i'll tell u wat i'm goin to do(bcoz its secret~khalli ma3i)..hahaa..

yg plg penting..sem ni...i wanna be a good student...thats my azam sem ni...jadi atau tak..tu sume tatau lg..tp,insyaAllah la...so,bcoz all of u dah terrrrbaca my azam ni...klu nmpk i'm doing something wrong...which can make my dream not true..plz tell me...be frankly n tell me..u can do wht eva u want until i come back to myself...

i dont know why i'm writing something yg tak brape penting utk ditayangkn kt blog ni hr ni...(its just like diary...).maybe bcoz i miss writing very much..i'm worry if i don't have enough time to writing since the lecture dah stat hr ni~...(dr allouh yg sgt rajin ye)..

the subjects that i take this sem are = pathophysiology, dental anatomy and occlusion, anatomy head and neck, microbiology, oral physiology, oral histology, lab DAO, lab anat H&N, n lab histo..
thinking of this subject make me really pening...tapi..kata2 ini tetap sebati dlm jiwaku...
NEVER GIVE UP!!!!BECOZ U HAVE ALLAH SWT ..

kawan2...pleez trust Him...trust that if we spend our time(ekceli, masa tu Allah punye gak) to Allah swt..to do somthing dat Allah want us to do...to make somthing until we got His redha.... He'll give us 'kelapangan' utk kite study best2....so, never regret if u need to spend ur time to read AlQuran and tadabbur it...if u need to go to tafaqquh..if u need to go ziarah ur friends..etc

td..kat jamiah...i called my umi...i miss her so much...i miss her precious word that always make me 'sebak'..she always think +ve...never angry..patient..even my result for the last sem was very 'dasyat'...n always support me..i luv u umi...tibe2 terigt saat2 nk fly jordan dulu...umi dah byk sacrifice..n i knew that sepanjang i was in 1st year, umi sgt susah terpaksa tanggung beban byr fees yg tersgtla mahal..umi, i hope i will not make u cry becoz of me (kecuali tangisan kegembiraan)..umi yg sgt penyabar..pnyayang...pmurah...umi la d best

abah pun...walau sakit..walau sibuk...abah ttp jua berkorban..ttp jua mencari rezki utk anak2..tetap jua berdakwah...tetap jua berusaha menggembirakan hati anak2...abah d best too



speechless~